I think there’s a sense in which I’m trying to adopt a practice of holy discovery to my daily tai chi exercise. If one goes to church every Sunday, at least in theory one rarely has a massive spiritual insight once a week; instead, it’s a series of small insights which, if one is lucky, regularly build up to a fever pitch that leads to a deep insight… and those deep insights arrive somewhat often. But without a process for tracking those insights, of course, they fade away and are lost. Hence the importance of journaling in so many spiritual traditions: without a process of tracking insight, the insight is lost and vanishes.
How does one approach a practice from the point of view of holy discovery, when some days (like today, for example), are just not going to be that interesting? I mean, every day just isn’t going to be Easter or Christmas. How do you keep going (especially when the Dweller on the Threshold is always there, saying you can sleep in, you can stay in bed. It won’t matter if you miss a day… And more or less, the Dweller is right. Missing a day isn’t going to matter that much… but it also doesn’t take long to wreck a habit, either).
And I think that the answer is that one chooses to approach the practice from the point of view of what will you teach me today? Sometimes the answer is going to be Nothing. That has to be ok. Sometimes we learn nothing. But we also have to assume that somewhere in our cells, deep in our muscles or bones, something was learned today, even if it didn’t make it all the way to the conscious awareness of the ego.
Not everything does. Not right away, at least.