I’ve not been sleeping well lately. It’s meant avoiding coffee or most stimulants after noon, and trying to find ways to shut my body down at around 9:00 or 9:30, and then keeping it shut down until 5 am. But I’m waking cranky and tired, and pressing the snooze button. Today I pressed it four times. At nine minutes a pop, that’s a whole lot of down time — time that I spend most mornings doing the tai chi form.
So when I finally DID get up, I was rushed and still tired and still cranky. But.
But, on the other side of the tai chi work, I feel great. I’m pulled together and I feel stronger and healthier and happier. And while I’m still tired, I’m not as overwhelmingly tired as when the alarm went off the first time at 5am. This is one of the long-term effects of the work, I think. That I’m happier afterwards than I thought I would be, or really should be. And troubles fall away from my brain to some extent. I wish I could figure out a way to do that without having to do the whole form, and could just jump straight to the happiness, but I’ll take what I can get.
Doing tai chi makes me happy. And that’s a good reason for doing it.